Posts Tagged ‘parenthood

09
Nov
08

Carol

Carol
By Darren King [copyright 2008]

I didn’t want you
to have to be that person –
who walks to the edge
of the abyss
and looking down into
its murky depths
walks in
undaunted
if but to hang on
to someone you love
as if going in yourself
you could bring him back.
I didn’t want you
to have to be that person
you who are too good
too kind
and now all too knowing
of what angels know
what is there
what the rest of us
can only wonder
assuming we are allowed
even to speculate
what it was you saw.
But it is telling now and
for me a haunting glimpse
when someone recently
asked you in mixed company
Carol what is it you are afraid of
you smiled and replied softly, kindly
in the only language you know –
I’m not afraid of anything anymore.

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03
Oct
08

First Born

By Darren King [copyright 2008]

Your formal name
is derived from Old English.
But ever since you were born
we preferred its Irish form
meaning spirited;
which more suit
your personality as an infant,
especially as a toddler
and definitely as the
undaunted young man of ten
I drove to hockey on
winter Saturday mornings.
You are your mother
and your father both
when at their very best.
You have inherited
their eccentricities
which can make you
difficult to parent
and for other children
easy to admire.
And when Sage our cat
had to be put down,
you wanted to go with us,
to be there for him.
And if we had let you,
you would have stayed,
I know you would have.
But it was one of those times
(please forgive us)
when we tried not to forget
that you were still just a boy
when we were trying so much
to do the right thing for you,
when nothing else about that
sad, sad day felt right.
But let me say this –
when sorrow is overcome
by bravery
for someone you love,
it means you are too good
for this world of cabbages and kings,
which places you my son
among its saints.




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